Somehow things that have happened in my life stand out in bold letters as I see the date on the calendar and remember someone’s birthday from many many years ago or an anniversary and even their passing. Sadly this morning I recalled the phone call from my youngest son telling me his Dad had just passed away with him and his brothers by his side. He said in “almost a whisper that he knew I loved him, and I guess it was true. How do you not love the person you knew since you were fifteen years of age?”
We married at 18 and had three children all boys and then after nineteen years realized we could not continue our life together happily and so we parted. It was difficult back in 1973 to be a single parent working full time and caring for my sons but it was something that had to be done and I promised myself I would do the best I could. Luckily after our divorce in 1974 he kept his visits with his children on Sundays and some holidays but I don’t think he had the capacity to love his sons and find out what they were about as individuals. Each of my sons has the intelligence and capacity of being a wonderful human being to everyone. They are kind and caring and loving in their own ways and I love them dearly. I feel that my ex-husband and father of my children missed out on seeing his grand-daughters Mia 3 and Joava 1. By far they are the cutest smartest little girls with booming personalities.
Our sons together have given me much love over the years and I so wish we could turn back the hands of time. You sure have missed the best 10 years of their lives, Joe and I can almost see that sneer on your face. RIP!
Current Mood: Sad