Dancing Queen No More

Growing up in the fifties was neat with all kinds of music playing on the jukebox and bongos and capella on the city streets…….Once the big bands started I loved dancing the jitter-bug (also known as the Lindy in the city area)…Glen Miller’s” In the Mood”was a favorite and I could dance without stopping to catch a quick breath.   Unfortunately over the years picking up the smoking habit that was very popular took over my a part of my life.  It never occurred to me that the damage is working behind the scenes, as it is invisible-painless and the only hint might be the occasional bronchitis cough that happens more often over the years..

In 2003 right after working thirty plus years in offices-on computers-in moldy buildings I retired.   Soon after the shortness of breath began (I had already stopped smoking in 1998)  the axe fell when the pulmonary doctor informed me it was too late.

My lungs had already suffered the forty plus years of cigarette smoking and I had C.O.P.D irreversible lung disease and gradually I would lose my oxygen levels.   I kicked up my exercise routines and did yoga-Pilates-weight training anything to keep me strong but it would not help the inevitable damage that was already done…….This past two weeks suffering with a slight case of pneumonia brought my results to a halt.  My oxygen levels are at 89-90 qualifying me for oxygen.   This is not how I pictured Ms Millie as I feel younger than springtime with lots of plans bubbling around in my active head,  but there are paybacks for our bad habits and this is it for me!!

I only wish I could get on a soap box and dance like I did way back when and then do it again and show the youth and the rest of the smokers what in deed does happen to us when we smoke……..

‘My promise to myself if to continue to do my exercise volunteering loving and helping others.   I will be thankful for the past and grateful for the future but I want to dance the Lindy once again”…..

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