Years ago in my career life, I recall older women than myself complaining about families and siblings become ornery and crotchety. It seemed their lives did not turn out the way they had hoped it would and so they did nothing to change it for the better. In my situation I have two older and one younger sibling all of who have been married for many many years. We grew up not being close but respectful of each other and so I could not believe this could happen in my family.
I actually felt blessed that we didn’t have the negativity but I must admit I wondered how nice it would be if we were closer and shared our feelings and thoughts and dreams. It never happened and I don’t know why. Maybe it is just how it was in my generation or just my family. Any problems or situations I faced I shared with a close friend or two who would listen to me rant and rave about everything and nothing until I felt relief. So many times I would mention this to a sibling and they would reply,’ you are too sensitive, let it roll of your back, let it go.” ” You are strong.” And yes maybe I am because I am a single person. But gee whiz,! Even single people have feelings of pain and disappointment and even cry a tear or two, yet my three siblings are in their own cocoons and couldn’t care a bit about me.
The loving feeling is dwindling quickly and we are starting to create nightmares for each other. I don’t know what is causing this anxiety and disapproval of each others lives and beliefs. Is it because they have reached the late seventies and feel their life- line shortening? Have they become perhaps – fearful?t
I do recall the saying “you can pick your friends, but you can’t pick your relatives”. Right now if I had to choose, I would pass on all of them. And maybe they wouldn’t pick me either.
Feel free to share with me as I am curious! Have a wonderful Sunday.
Current Mood: Sad